this a personal creative non-fiction journal about a traveler and his evolving life. He saw the waning warmth of humans through his puppy's eyes and now he see the world through his child's eyes.
He thought much of our country's warmth went dormant when Bush held our country hostage!
Some of my hostile readers suffering from overinflated egos might actually think that I might be writing about them on this blog! Get a life please ;)
I think many of us humans go through this feeling of depression or melacholy, depending

on the lunar cycle (?) perhaps...
when I herbalize and realize my anger sometimes when "i'm on a budget and what you thought was a few drinks turns into an expensive outing...you worry...you show high anxiety, not the go lucky playboy lifestyle that perhaps you envisioned??
How can you handle all the pressures of fatherhood??
I have bills to take care of , taxes to pay, insurance to pay over in America, calls to the immigration lawyer, calls to find an accountant...
4 years ago, it was a lot less worries, depression...
all you seek maybe is a no worries sort of bliss bringing up Colin Murray Garvald and having an essentially low impact and carbon imprint lifestyle...
I want to enjoy it for as

long as possible...
I don't no how long it can last...
I feel overwhelmed, especially opening the mail to find all these financial complications overseas and the health care being canceled because my bank went inactive!!
Life is not a box of chocolates...
but it sure is nice to go out and check the waves to get away from the kind of funk your mind is going into!

but then at least for a little while, you can escape to the ocean and swim past the last breaker..
just before the sun sets behind the Mermaid Beach homes of some very rich Aussies!
you watch the sun sneak behind these palaces...
you are floating in the higher gravity salt water, biding your time to catch that beautiful wave, you watch the sun set
while on the peaks of the waves.. when that beautiful and dangerous wave beckons you to ride her for as long as you can...
before you have to lift your head for a breath!